WHO IS THIS TOO? LOL...

Hello there, and welcome to... well, to whatever this turns out to be.

Honestly eh, if I tell you I have the foggiest idea where this blog is headed😂, but hey, that’s part of the charm, isn't it? 

I could tell you that it’s all about my personal life and lessons learnt, life as an immigrant (my Italian journey so far), my relationship shenanigans, my nostalgic memories growing up in Cameroon, my minimalism perspectives, or biotech, my present relationship with God and my ongoing struggle with faith as an agnostic who really wants to believe there's a god but has so many unanswered questions, my scary uncertainty about my future or my attempts at juggling many things while life whirls around me, but to be perfectly honest, it’s all a bit of everything and nothing all at once. And that’s just alright by me.

So, here I am, Bleshy (I could put my real name, but where's the fun in that lol? even though I know some of you already know it). 

A girl with too many thoughts rattling around her head, too many random musings to keep track of. And, instead of letting them float away in the ether, I figured: why not put them out into the world? Who knows, I might end up writing about how I’m learning to live in a new country far away from my family, or to live with less and still feel like I’ve got everything I need. Or how biotech is the love of my life and my journey so far with it. Or, perhaps, I’ll share something completely random on a Wednesday that makes no sense at all but feels just right in the moment.

But Ble, you could’ve just started a podcast instead...💁 Well, sure. But you see, I’m not that great at expressing myself verbally. I tend to lose my train of thought halfway through a sentence, and I’ve been told I have what people call a “smart mind, dumb mouth” (their words, not mine oh 🤷🏽‍♀️). So, yeah, this feels way better to me.

Also, as much as I have so many thoughts swirling around in my head (about beauty, art, science, fashion, religion, politics, the world, and all the things that make me question everything) the idea of talking for hours stresses me. I’m an introvert, and if I tried to say everything out loud, I’d either burn out or ramble myself into confusion. Plus, I'm not really a fan of my voice like that, abeg!😅

Writing will give me that space to collect my thoughts, take my time, and actually make sense of what I’m trying to say, so as not to be taken out of context or nuance. It also feels more natural, less forced, and honestly, more me. 

“Ok why not just post on Twitter, get more engagement, and hear different perspectives?” Well, that’s exactly it; Twitter. A jungle of weird opinions, and I don’t want unsolicited advice, ego trips, or random debates crowding my thoughts. 

This one is my space! A place where I can be real, raw, stupid, wise, quirky, goofy, weird, cringe, make my writing mistakes and so on, with no worries about people showing off or throwing their opinions around just because they can.

This blog isn’t just a space for anyone; it’s my personal diary and a way of feeling heard for me. I wouldn’t put my most intimate thoughts into the void of Twitter. Why should I? 

Also, there are some people 🌚 on twitter I’d rather not want getting insights on what goes through my mind lol. So, here I am, carving out a space where I can write freely and connect with those who truly get it; my safe space, my thoughts, and maybe yours too. 😚

I can’t promise a tidy roadmap ahead, but I can promise a journey; one that’s a little unpredictable, a tad messy, and hopefully a lot of fun😇. By the time we get to post number 10, I might have it all figured out. Or I might still be pondering how on earth to make content that doesn’t involve overthinking everything at 3 a.m. Either way, I’d love for you to tag along and see where this road leads.

So, grab a seat (or not lol) and join me in this slightly bizarre corner of the internet. We’ll laugh, we’ll get confused, we’ll question a few things, but most of all, we’ll definitely discover some interesting things together. That, I swear by!

Here’s to the unknown, to whatever this turns into, and to the fact that I’m still figuring it out. 🥂

Let’s get this thing started, shall we?